Not my time (yet)

Please, find your happiness

Not today, it is not the time
It’s not my time to be happy
A little longer…
After them…
After everyone…
I’ll finally go and pursue my life
My dreams
My smile
My hopes
I’ll finally happy then..
Right?

Hopeless

I was born with the darkness
Gloomy night, along with the cry of thunder
I, now…
Live…
With a constant despair
and the black dog that won’t disappear

Sometimes, I just want to let go
lean on something
or just don’t care about anything
but…
all of that
are luxuries for someone
as helpless as me